life, love, happiness and the most important God

You get out of it what you put into it

2010-08-12T02:29:00.000-07:00

I often wonder what the world must make of me, I mean I am just your average person trying to make their way in the world. I work in a box and live in a bigger box (metaphorically speaking) do I actually make a difference to the world? I hope I do.

In the bible Jesus talks about the parable of the sower and the seed. "A farmer went out to sow his seed. Some of the seed fell on the road; it was tramped down and the birds ate it. Other seed fell in the gravel; it sprouted, but withered because it didn't have good roots. Other seed fell in the weeds; the weeds grew with it and strangled it.Other seed feel in the rich Earth and produced a bumper crop. "Are you listening to this? Really listening?" His disiples asked, "why did you tell this story?" Jesus said, "You've been given insight into God's kingdom- you know how it works. There are others who need stories. But even with stories some of them aren't going to get it: Their eyes are open but they don't hear a thing. This story is about some of those people. The seed is the Word of God. The seeds on the road are those who hear the word, but no sooner do they hear then the Devil snatches it away from them so they won't believe and be saved. The seeds in the gravel are those hear with enthusiasm, but the enthusiasm doesn't go very deep. It's only another fad, and the moment there is trouble it's gone. The seed that fell into the weeds-well, these are the ones who hear, but then the seed is crowded out and nothing comes of it as they go about their lives worrying about tomorrow, making money and having fun. But the seed in the good Earth- these are the good-hearts who seize the Word and hold onto it no matter what, sticking with it until there is a harvest".

So which seed do I want to be? I am aiming for the seed that fell on the rich Earth. Being a Christian isn't just about being nice and helping others, it's about being rich in your faith and letting God take you where-ever he wants and needs you to go. If you choose to hear the bible and what God has planned for you and then you choose to ignore it you could get seriously burned. In a way most of us are like that (I know I can be), thankfully with Gods timing, grace and love we can all be like the seed that fell on rich Earth.

being called to step out

2010-08-11T07:16:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like your missing out on something really big? But you have no idea of what it might be?

Well that's what faith is about we often miss the bigger picture.

I have just spent half of today wondering what to do with my life. I really do believe I am meant to be stepping out but I am fustrated because I cannot think of what I could possibly do or be. I have felt this way on and off for years. I have always been drawn to Youth ministry but I have no idea if this is what I want or if it's what God wants from me. I am part of a fund raising team for a charity out in Africa, I have been asked to go out for two weeks at some point. What if I don't go? Will I regret it? Will it be going against God's will? I have such conflicting feelings about it all. All I know right now is that my life doesn't feel right, nothing fills me with proper joy, it's like a light bulb that needs to be changed becuase it's light is going on and off all the time. I really want to be free, to be part of something that is God's work and not do the same thing day in and day out. I could really do with prayer right now about it all.

Years ago when I was really sturggling with my faith I opened my bible and came accross Joshua chapter one verse nine which said Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you whereever you go. I must try and not forget this as I am one of the most impatient people I know. I guess I just need to wait on God's timing instead of my own.

First day on my new blog page

2010-08-09T08:05:00.000-07:00

I have attempted blogs before, in fact many times I have started and then failed to continue them. This time I am determined to take time out of my busy and chaotic life to blog.

I guess I should say a bit about myself so I thought I would say 10 things about me.

1: I am very happily married to Mark.
2:I live in a suburb of Nottingham
3: I go to a fantastic Church which I feel very prevlidged to belong to.
4: I am really a geek at heart with a love of all things gadget wise.
5: I love to listen to and play music, esp my guitar.
6: I have travelled around Europe for the past couple of years on holiday and it has really given me a longing to continue that to the point where I dream of packing up, buying a camper van and going off into the sunset with my husband.
7: I love museums, but hate spending more than a few minutes at each thing.
8: I can scan read, this infuriates my husband because by the time he has finished reading one thing I am normally onto the 3rd thing.
9: I love to listen to books nowadays rather than read them, although I am at the moment reading a book about a youth worker.
10: I am not a very patient person. (this I hope will change with time)

I have just spent (on and off) the week at New Wine in Newark. I had the most fantastic experience there and it has made me more thirsty for God than ever before. Sometimes I really have felt like there has to be more to life than just believing in God. I have felt like a well slowly drying up and really needed that refreshing water to flow over me like it did once before. For those who don't believe in God or religion, it's totally real and God is out there. I felt the holy spirit on Friday night and even tried to stop what was happening whilst I was being prayed for. (But it wouldn't stop, much to my stubbon amazement)

So this is where I stand right now raring to go and do what God wants me to do. To step out and be counted.

I have started a challenge to not go on Facebook for the next week starting from this evening. My husband does have an account but he rarely uses it and I end up managing all his messages on it etc. This will be a real test for me as it is the first thing I look at when I wake up (I phone apps sometimes arn't the best things) to the last thing at night. It has consumed me to the point where it has taken over my life.

I really hope people will follow this blog as it would be nice to get some kind of feed back good or bad.